In honor of Earth Day, this is the second annual Blog Post Recycling Day.  I think it is the second annual Blog Post Recycling Day.  Somebody declared one last year, and I recycled then, but I haven't actually seen anything about it this year.  Maybe because my Facebook friend who posts that kind of stuff is in church today?
Anyway, it's timely -- just one week from Johnson County, Iowa's NAMI Walk.  So my recycled blog from a month ago comes with one more plea to contribute to the organization that has contributed so much to me, making my contribution to you, dear readers, possible.
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On  The Road Again -- NAMIWalks 2011 

It's that  time of year again.  Across the country people with mental illness, our  friends, family, care providers, even law enforcement officials are  pulling on our walking shoes to raise money for NAMI -- National  Alliance on Mental Illness.  Last year soldiers in Iraq pulled on their  hiking boots and their 40 lb. packs and 
ran while NAMI San Diego  walked.
So what is this all about?  Here, my friends,  is my testimony.
A couple years ago, I wrote a post on 
holiday  gift giving for your favorite normal.  I asked my spouse, 
What  would be a good present for the family member of somebody with a mental  illness?
She didn't even look up from her  computer.  Without missing a beat, she said, 
A cure.
A  cure.  I know that mental illness is a family illness.  The whole  family lives with it.  But her words caught me.  What she wanted was for  both of us, a cure.
It's something she can't give me.   I can't give her.  My doctor can't.  You can't give it to the person  you love.
We can, however, learn to manage symptoms.   We can claim the very best lives we can live.  We can live in 
recovery.
 
Peer  To Peer Program
I learned about recovery from  NAMI, from their 
Peer  to Peer program.  P2P is a ten-week course taught by people  with a mental illness for people with mental illness about what we do 
after  the doctor hands us a diagnosis and a prescription.
P2P  teaches us how to 
live.  It is why I bust my butt for this  walk.  It's not a cure.  But it's a 
lot.
That  first class, I heard that I am not alone.  The very first note I took  said, 
More unites us (our experiences) than divides us (our  diagnoses.)
Next P2P showed me the immense dignity  of those who live with mental illness.  It made me proud to know and be  known by and be in community with others who live with mental illness.
It  supplied tools like dialectical thinking, mindfulness, relapse  prevention planning, techniques for emotional regulation and getting a  good night's sleep, strategies for staying safe and coping with  hospitalization.
P2P gave me something to do when  medication didn't give me a cure.
And it opened for me a  path into my future.  It reminded me that I am an advocate.  That is  who I am.  I still have an identity, after all
So I  bust my butt for this walk.  It is how I give back.
NAMI  Walks 
Now, the first time I  did a NAMI walk, to tell the truth, I was scared.  Would it be grim?  A  protest and a wailing against what is not possible, what we have lost  and what we have to face?
If you have walked for NAMI,  you are laughing here.  You know a NAMI Walk is so -- 
not grim.   It's a party!  With balloons and babies and dogs, music, belly dancers,  football players, great food.  In Johnson County, Iowa, the Old Capitol  City Roller Girls lead off the walk.  In San Diego, you are likely to  hear a didgeridoo.
Bottom line, a NAMI walk is a gift.   It's a public demonstration to our families, friends, politicians, our  neighbors, coworkers, the people in our places of worship, the viewing  public -- a public demonstration that we are here for each other.  We  take a break from all that wailing.  And throw a whale of a party.
At  the same time, we raise funds for the programs that help us help  ourselves and one another, the things that nobody else will pay for, for  people who have fallen off the bottom of the budget.  NAMI does the  stuff that makes a difference the day 
after the doctor hands us a  diagnosis and a prescription.
Team Prozac  Monologues debuted last year, with results that were not too  shabby.  We raised $2640.  
Mazie's  sponsors contributed $250 toward that total.  Helen is walking in  her stead this year.  
Sponsors  can contribute in Mazie's memory here.
Why I  Walk 
Me, I am walking for everybody who used to be  on a three month wait list for an intake interiew at the local  community mental health center; but this year that became a six month  wait list at the center the next county over.  I am walking for  everybody who used to  be on a four year wait list for sheltered  housing; but this year the shelter shut down.
I am walking for those  who are not crazy enough to pull out a gun and get the sheriff to buy  their meds; they're just crazy enough to sleep in the alley behind the  homeless shelter after they have stayed their ninety-day limit.
I  am walking for family members who go to work wondering what is  happening at home with their loved ones, now that the day program is  closed.
I am walking for the resident on call in the ER  who has to send home the merely suicidal, while the flaming psychotic  waits for 36 hours in the hallway for the next available bed.  And for  the newly diagnosed and dazed person who just got released with not  enough meds to make it through the weekend, to make room for the flaming  psychotic.
I am walking for the 
young  people I know whose brains are  even now being damaged in a war  that we got into for oil.
I am walking in  gratitude for law enforcement personnel who are trying to figure out how  to do this new job, and need new training, to take care of those who  have been discarded so that the very richest people in the world can get  a tax cut.  I am walking in prayer for those who get caught up in  somebody's 
suicide by cop.
This would be the  place to note that the co-chairs of Johnson County's NAMI Walk this year  are Janet Lyness, County Attorney, and Lonnie Pulkrabek, County  Sheriff.  Props to them and to the competition between their two teams!
I  did say that the Walk would be a party.  So even while I am angry that  so much suffering comes not from the illness, but from the neglect, I  will nevertheless 
celebrate those who do what they can do.  (That  sentence would be an example of dialectical thinking, by the way -- see  above, the curriculum of Peer to Peer.)
I am walking  in wonder and amazement at the strength of the human spirit.  I am  walking in deep appreciation for those who have helped me personally,  for peer teachers, support group members, care providers, friends and  family.
I will be walking with tears in my eyes, that  my son and daughter-in-law will travel from Madison to Iowa City to walk  beside me.
I am walking on April 30, 2011 in Iowa  City, Iowa for all these reasons.  And I am walking also for 
you,  dear reader.  I ask you to support me in this walk.  
Click  here to make your tax deductible, safe and quick contribution to  NAMIWalks Johnson County.
Closing Shot
There  are many versions of this song on Youtube.  I chose this one, despite  the credits that run over it, because the ragged bunch of friends who  sing it, some not sure of the words, illustrate the point.  We 
are a  ragged bunch.  And pretty wonderful because of it.
The Scream by Edvard Munch in public domain
photo of Team Prozac Monologues by Judy Brickhaus
photo of homeless vet by Matthew Woitunski and used under the  Creative Commons licencse
photo of  New York City police officer by See-ming  Lee,  copyrighted and used by permission